one day this will all be over

when you don't have enough for candy or beer, what do you do with yourself?

and you watch the utilities get shut off one by one.

the one i fear the most is electricity. i believe i have 10 days. i should be able to make it. with any luck. if they keep paying me.

one day, this will all be over. and perhaps we will remember it, fondly. well, parts, anyway.

memories of the old man

hey.

just thinking of my dad. weird. i remember wanting to kiss him, open mouthed. didn't do it. i think.

still odd. maybe as odd as when i asked my girlfriend to hit me in the face. which she did.

wasn't as much fun as i hoped, but still hot.

and jill, smoking dope and fucking. great afternoon.

though, hard to beet making out with waxman and eating chocolate chips.

then again, what is

I remeber this one morning with lei.

We had such intense sex. It was not the only one. But it was so intense...

Well. That's over.