yeah, a lot of posts (redux)

sorry.

gotta shut up.

but this one, this one rocks me.

last time i was major manic---and it was...interesting. some things totally awesome. some insights i will carry forward. but, being type two, the lows. dangerous. yet i held them together.

which makes me want to get off the drugs entirely.

not that i think i'll ever be free of the symptoms.

i'll have those episodes. i just believe that the drugs will help me learn lessons necessary for the management of them.

i know from my experience of ativan when to speak and when to be silent. and i used to have a problem with that. not that i disagree with sorrentino's critique of the strong and silent type "silence is the lid of a garbage can".

nough said

Meditations

All this new fame has me wondering--why would anyone want to read this. And I have some ideas:

experience: I have some. Not exactly unique experience, but maybe that's a good thing.

Not totally clueless: I know a few things: been around the block a few times. Know a good romanian place.

Wisdom: I hate it . Think it's psychotic. It's like a horoscope or a fortune cookie. You recognize the truth of it after the fact.

Truth: I guess this is kind of confessional, and as we know from foulault (sp), that's a technology for truth-production.

Not entirely an attension seeker: this is anonymous and that counts for something.

I could go on, but don't want to tire you.