the hole

well, aside from a few as yet unacounted expenses (internet bill, various fees, dry cleaning i may or may not have, drugs i need to pay the co-pay on, that sort of thing), the hole is not as big as i feared, $4,446.81.

add on maybe $200 more for thing left unaccounted, maybe a couple hundred to get through the month and i'm only looking at 5 grand. plus about 50k in student loans.

it doesn't look too bad, really.

doable.

The Lonely Philoligist

the lonely philologist

in place of feelings, topology.
Transformations hidden or misremembered. A landscape, formed from the
horizon-the literal one, the one always out of reach.

Now we enter the longest leg of our journey. No virgil, no dante, no
anchises to guide.

But the rails run straight. And the timetable, which long ago
standardized, well, no need to tell you that.

Clause consecutive or final, none the less. Some distinctions are only
made by the lonely philologist.

I just lost my job

There goes funding, tuition and healthcare.

And the doubts crawl in. Am I kidding myself? Will I ever earn a degree?

And the thought of not finding another position. After a search. After so much disappointment.

I mean, I can't even spell.

And another year without a position. So much debt, for what?

No vacation now.

Permanent vacation.

I don't think I can go on unemployment while in school.

But i'm going to give it the old college try.

But i'm afraid.