Fits and Starts

it's not why i do it, but readers seem to come and go in fits and starts.

which is fine. again, it's not why i do it. i don't even know why i started, but it feels natural.

i've always been writing for the big Other. even in my personal journal--private stuff. always revising, always improving.

it feels good. somedays, when i'm breaking down, it feels like i've taken a bottle of ativan afterwards. not what i expected.

still, it will be nice when someone follows, when someone leaves comments.