hey

so, i just gotta little freaked out, because i was seeing that a couple of people, strangers, really, were reading me.

There's someone out there who's checking things out and although i'm anonymous, i have to admit that i broke down and told someone i was doing this.

so i assumed the person i told was reading it as a way of getting into my mind.

now i see other people actually reading it because...

well, for their own reasons.

so i took down the map thing. i like it better when it's just me writing and responding to the comments.

at first, i just wanted anyone to try and read.

now that i know some have tried, all i want is to go on.

so no more reminders of who's following. it flatters my ego enough to feel that some may chance upon this blog.

really, that's all i want.

not to be writing in oblivion.

so the map served its purpose. it let me know that some were reading.

and for some personal failing in myself, i couldn't continue this unless i knew that from time to time another human being chanced upon it.

but now i know that seems to happen.

so no counter.

no map.

no who last read when.

just back to writing and hoping that something i say will strike a cord with someone else.

which is all this ever was about.